Thursday, December 31, 2009


Well as this year draws to a close, I could not be happier to bid 2009 goodbye. It's been a trying year in our household to say the least. No need to recap all that happened. I look forward to what 2010 has in store for our family. I have a feeling 2010 is going to be a very good year.

Happy Almost 2010.


I hope you all had a nice Christmas. We enjoyed ours in Miami this year and Gabriel loved all his gifts as usual. Although we all agreed that we should have just bought him action figures and he would have been just as content.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Two years ago, WHAT?

Yes, two years ago today we landed in Ft Lauderdale with Gabriel -- our forever family. Our adoption process that had taken soooo long, had come to an end -- right there in the airport. I have a hard time wrapping my mind around the fact that it has been two years already.

During our adoption process I remember reading other people's stories. Their stories all talked about how time had flown by once they brought their children home, but I never really thought too much about it being us because we were going through so much paperwork and more paperwork to make all this happen. These stories all belonged to other people, not us. And then one day, December 6, 2007, our story began.

I have realized that there are moments that you will never forget. Some you wish to forget them while they are happening and others you hope they never end. Picking up our son in Guatemala will forever be one long moment in my mind. But two years ago, during our Embassy trip, I experienced a moment that I relive quite often because it is a daily reminder for me of how incredibly blessed Greg and I are.

We were sitting in the waiting area of the US Embassy with Gabriel and Colleen, our adoption facilitator in Guatemala, waiting to be called for our appointment. Colleen turned and said to me, " are one of the fortunate you have any idea how blessed you are to be bringing Gabriel home for the holidays? Any family here would give anything to be in your place" at which point, I was left breathless and started to cry. I couldn't even say a word but I could tell she knew that I completely understood. I felt all the emotions of the last year and half come crashing down in one moment and I was so overwhelmed with emotion that all I could do was take that moment in.

Shiny gifts are nice for Christmas, but two years ago today, I got the best gift of all -- our son.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Monday, October 26, 2009

Atlantic Beach Wedding Weekend in Pictures

It's funny how dogs and human finds each other even when you think you don't need another dog in your life. We already had two dogs and you would think that would have sufficed. Sadly, Eastwood had been abandoned and desparately needed a new home. Shortly after finding him, we suffered the loss of our fifth baby. Little did I know how much I would need Eastwood and what a comfort he would bring my broken heart.

He might have needed a loving home, but I needed him even more -- to help me realize that life does go on and that there is happiness on the other side of those tears.

Thank you, Eastwood. ♥

Saturday, October 17, 2009

And one more makes three

And now for some happy news -- let me introduce you to the newest member of our family.

He is a 6.5 year old German Shepherd that was abandoned in a subdivision where someone brought him to a local k-9 rescue service. We met him one weekend in September and absolutely adored him. He has an amazing personality, loves Gabriel and fits perfectly in with rest of the pack. Everyone that meets him simply adores him. I got to name him this time and picked Eastwood and everytime we tell people his name, they ask, "like Clint?"

Yes, like Clint.


I realize it has been over two months since I last posted and unfortunately I have a good reason for it this time. Shortly after my last post, I learned that I was pregnant. For those of you that know me very well, you all knew that after my loss in 2005, I never ever wanted to be pregnant again. But when I tested positive, I knew I had to do everything possible to keep this pregnancy. I went on blood thinner injections twice daily in my stomach, increased folic acid, had to see the doctor weekly and have my blood tested repeatedly, etc. I knew that if things didn't work out, at least I gave it my best try and there would be no regrets.

Unfortunately, my best was not good enough and now God holds one more of my angels in Heaven.

I'm sorry, sweet little one, whose hand I will never hold and face I will never touch. I'm sorry that my best was not good enough to keep you on this side of Earth. But I will carry the sound of your heart beating with me -- forever.

Monday, August 3, 2009

A Case of the Mondays....

Well today started off normal up until we got a call from daycare that Gabriel had what they believed to be pink eye. So off I went to pick him up, drive him to the pedi in Neptune Beach to get a script and spend the day at home with mama. He had it in one eye and that lasted a short while until he rubbed his good eye with the mung in his bad eye and now it appears it has spread.

Let's just pray Greg and I don't get it. It's one thing to be two and have it and it's a whole 'nother thing to be an adult with green pus pouring out your eye -- not so cute! The good news is that Gabriel's ears continue to be clear of any drainage and aside from his eyes, he is doing very, very well.